You know when you think “ugh, I don’t want to do this but I have to”? And then you think “wait, no I don’t have to! I can just say no!”? And then you think “hey, that’s what SRK said in Dear Zindagi“? I just had one of those moments.
Y’all recommend so many good movies, and I can see for myself the reviews and things of movies I would like to watch. And I have this mental list of movies to watch, and then I sit down in front of the TV and just go “ugh, I don’t want to”.
The thing is, this has been going on for months, and the only thing that has changed is how increasingly guilty I feel. And the more guilt I feel, the more overwhelming it feels to actually watch a “smart” movie on purpose and review it. So, no more! I am taking many many steps back and starting over!
On Monday, my friend came over and we watched Brahmachari and I LOVED it. It’s not a movie anyone was asking me to watch/review, it’s not an “important” movie, and I wasn’t even watching it and thinking about if it was “good” or “bad” or what it “meant”. I had fully retreated to just watching it to enjoy it. And then I immediately felt guilty because I “should” have watched a deep important movie with her instead, and baring that I certainly “should” have thought deeply about this silly movie so I could write a deep smart review.
This is bad! This guilt, this is not going to get me back to enjoying watching and writing about films! Instead, going “hey, today I feel like watching a movie” and then watching it is where I should start. So that’s what I’m gonna do! I wanna watch Rocky Aur Rani first day-first show, I’ll definitely be watching Jawan First Day-First Show, but otherwise maybe I don’t write a full review of a movie for a bit now. Maybe instead I just watch movies FOR FUN because I WANT TO. Like a Regular.
(needless to say, the “for fun because I want to” includes our watchalongs, because I ADORE our watchalongs)
